Okay I am taking a step forward. I am hoping this will end the first chapter of my life. A couple of years ago, I put my name on Adoption.com's registry. I have been watching for two years. I noticed a few things. Around mother's day, my birthday, and Thanksgiving, I would get major hits. This year was different.
A couple of months ago, I had a really wacky dream. I dreamt that my natural mother had a heart attack. It was so surreal. My own chest hurt almost like I was having one. Physically I did not feel ill. My stomach was upset but that was it. I went back to bed and was puzzled by it all. A few days later the hits on the registry stopped.
I keep a daily eye on the registry. For the last month and half, I have had no hits. Zip. Nothing. I decided a couple of weeks ago that I would check to see if she was still alive. I would wait though until after my birthday to do so. Something of a confirmation for me.
Today I wrote the Indiana Department of Health, Vital Statistics, Department of special registries. I sent the following email to Mary Hinds. She is out of the office until tomorrow. Hopefully maybe I will have some answers.